Only the first night of giving Melatonin to Leila, did she sleep through the night. In fact, in my mind (overly-tired and grumpy mind) she may be doing worse through the night. The Melatonin takes the edge off going to bed and falling asleep. She is cooperative and calm within 10 minutes or so, even with just half a pill, which is about 1.5 grams. However, whole pill, half pill, or no pill, she is still up 2-4 times a night.
Her awakenings have become so restless. She wants in our bed, next to me, me in her bed, etc., but she just flips and kicks and tosses all over the place. I have literally gotten to the point of anger at times because to help her sleep, I have begun to take a beating as she whomps on me throughout the rest of the night. I actually think I'm more sleep-deprived than I was with either newborn because at least they didn't kick and hit all through the night while they rested.
Last night, while my brain was cursing, I calmly asked Leila to tell me what was wrong--as we walked back to her room. She kept mumbling something about her 'bed being bad.' My interpretation of that is a big question mark and has me back to the theory that she is afraid in the night, as her bed is a completely fine and cozy piece of furniture.
We bought a co-sleeper after Leila was born and it's a superb invention, I think. However, I need a co-sleeper for a toddler. I'm giving serious thought to buying a nice cot that she can sleep on in our room, right next to me-- out of kicking range. I'm afraid she'd still try to climb in so maybe I'll buy a really nice cot and sleep in her room next to her.
I'm so nervous about leaving her for four nights/ three days this week. I'm afraid any progress I've made to get her to trust me and rely on me, as well as her dad, for comfort is going to be lost and she's going to get even more super clingy again after I return. I guess the flip side is that this might be the least painful method for me of "Furberizing" her. I'm so glad I don't have to do this often because I simply wouldn't want to. So blessed I'm currently in a position of choice with work right now.
Seriously, folks. Starting bad habits? Couldn't care less. We all need normal doses of sleep around here. The morning schedule when we are all back in school will be absolutely painful if we can't get things turned around for her. So, I'm off to google 'cots'
No comments:
Post a Comment